Today is the day!

Today is the day....of countless possibilities.  I'm currently on a path to change my life.  My life is pretty damn good. But it needs to be more.  I need to love myself..not my things.  I need to find gratitude for my legs..my legs that take me on a journey, my legs that bring me happiness.  My legs, when entangled with my partners, feel at home.  

With life change comes transparency..and relinquishment of judgment.  

So, let's be honest. I've had eating disorders. 

For years.  It's a hard thing to shake, these heavy thoughts.  

But now is the time to be honest.   

I am bulimic.   

I starve myself, and I haven't sought help because I've been terrified of getting fat with therapy.  

Honesty.  

This is the day I change.  I read an article in Law of Attraction magazine that changed my life.  It did.  It was about not judging yourself and forgiving yourself if you do.  It gave me such insight to how other people think, and I am so grateful for that.  Since I read that article I have been starting my day with my positive affirmations before my eyes even open.   

I am beautiful. 

I am grateful for my body.

I am blessed with what I have in the present moment.

Everything has the ability to change.

I am strong.

I am beam of positive light.

I attract positivity into my life.

I am my husbands perfect partner. 

He is mine.

I am intuitive eater. 

I am thankful for my life and today I will live through those thoughts. 

Texas haulin'

My hubby, steppie and I have been in texas for the past few days. Let me tel you it has been really difficult sticking to my diet and workout regime since we've been here.
I particularly did not want to go out this morning, I was whiny, it was humid and I said I was going to run hills since we don't have many in arizona.
After a little pushing from my soul mate, I left and attempted to conquer a neighborhood hill.

There was nothing about this hill that said run.
It was a struggle, it hurt, I wanted to stop...but I didn't.
And when I got to the top..I was surprised at the view..and it became clear.
It seems as though you are unable to see the beauty when you are in the struggle, but when you finally get to the top, the perspective is grander, more beautiful, and sweeter than you expected.
In my case, I hadn't even imagined there was a view..that opportunity had not even crossed my mind..I was so deep in my own misery that I was jaded and could not see the possibility. But once I did, just like that, the pain was gone.

I took off and ran it four times.

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The first.

I run. And often find myself telling stories about things I see while I am on my adventures.


I was inspired by the Texas landscape in my run this morning and decided to archive my interesting runs with this blog. As well as motivating quotes, workouts, and anything fitness that I think is cool

Enjoy the view.

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